New stuff

I just got my enrollment package for my poly course! heheh. However, I'm not looking forward to poly life. I shouldn't be so negative but I just don't feel excited.. I even intend to skip the orientation if it's too boring. Yeah everyone is looking forward to poly life, I am still stuck there.
The day before (monday 21), Hester and I went for a movie at cineleisure. We watched just go with it. This movie is very typical but it lightens my mood. It's really fun going out with Hester even though we went out lots of time. Hope to catch up with Yung soon.

I wish I could get drunk

Today, I just can't hold back my tears, I felt like as if I am alone in a war with no weapon. Everything is so overwhelming. I kept thinking and thinking non-stop. I hate myself for not going into JC wasting my mums money. I hate to share my problems to people. I hate to bring worries to people. I hate people who bullies me. I hate this hash and cruel world honestly. Why am I going through all this while people of my age is worrying about which model of laptop are they getting. How parties that they organize turns out? I told my mum, she thought i wants more money.. It really hurts me alot. It feels like a really big axe going to cut you and you can't even scream because you are a mute.

Alright, I stop here I get sadder when I wrote everything down.
and... stop screaming at me as if I will never ever return your SMALL amount of money, you are embarrassing both of us in the public. -.-

i think my previous blog post picture look like "ah lian". okay i just leave it, its up to you guys to judge. anyway i had a wonderful week. Many things happen in my life. Because it is a new year so.... $.$! come on, who hates money?!?! hehe. I collected lots of ang bao and won some money. Moreover, i collected my pay and the boss gave me ang bao! shiokkkkkkkk~

I think i owe God lots of money, he bless me so much, i haven't give him back, soon ya.

But i need to calculate the amount that i need to spend/ give (:

1. money for church
   
2. clothes for poly
3. universal studio
4. dad's birthday
5. friend's birthday