You slowly take away my bitterness and fill it up with sweetness. Though I am risking my heart again.. Is it my loneliness that made my heart stray around? I don't want another guy on my heartbreaking list. I don't want to miss anyone, I don't want to wait for message. The worst is I don't want to feel sad and disappointed again and again...

回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了

越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割

):

dance my night away~

dududududdiiiddaaadadada

Set my mind, this is it.

Today sang kbox. Realise i haven even forget you. lol. typical teens uh? your impact is too great on me. Ha. I have been vulgar.. Need to playyyyy! holiday ending ):

Moved on

Dying rose can't be revived, i should just move on.

Dying Rose

If time can reverse.. I will not let you go, so what now? it's over.

29 feb 的快乐! (USS)

29 feb 2011. Spent about 100 bucks at universal studio. It was fun!!

I went there with..

Them!
LC, Bertrand, Yung, Huiyi, Foo, Becca, Keby, Vin, Eugene!
Had lots and lots of fun. Had lots and lots of roller coaster rides. I am proud to say, I am not afraid of galactica anymore (after 5 times).

Everything is fun so yeah shall elaborate. It's worth when your friends is there to have fun!!!!! :D
Eugene and Bertrand came late so while waiting, we took lots of pictures.
First stop:

OMG. look at this! scary
My hand turn cold while waiting for the ride the very first time, it's super fast!
Second stop:

Return of the mummy
This is the best! we spam the ride at the end of the day :D They make the ride seems like a reoccurring night mare. It's an indoor roller coaster :D
third stop:

Jurassic park, lost world. We ride the water ride and some lame kiddo ride, hahaha.
fourth stop:

far far away, this whole place look like a dream place to me, hehe. The ride is so gentle..
that keby can even take pics during a mini roller coaster ride!
We went to watch shrek 4d too.. it was awesome :D
next stop

water world. I hate this alot cause the gun sound is blaring!
and finally:

Madagascar! no rides here but we took loads of picture :D
finally this and that.

We are all tired and we went home happily ever after with popcorns ^^

New stuff

I just got my enrollment package for my poly course! heheh. However, I'm not looking forward to poly life. I shouldn't be so negative but I just don't feel excited.. I even intend to skip the orientation if it's too boring. Yeah everyone is looking forward to poly life, I am still stuck there.
The day before (monday 21), Hester and I went for a movie at cineleisure. We watched just go with it. This movie is very typical but it lightens my mood. It's really fun going out with Hester even though we went out lots of time. Hope to catch up with Yung soon.

I wish I could get drunk

Today, I just can't hold back my tears, I felt like as if I am alone in a war with no weapon. Everything is so overwhelming. I kept thinking and thinking non-stop. I hate myself for not going into JC wasting my mums money. I hate to share my problems to people. I hate to bring worries to people. I hate people who bullies me. I hate this hash and cruel world honestly. Why am I going through all this while people of my age is worrying about which model of laptop are they getting. How parties that they organize turns out? I told my mum, she thought i wants more money.. It really hurts me alot. It feels like a really big axe going to cut you and you can't even scream because you are a mute.

Alright, I stop here I get sadder when I wrote everything down.
and... stop screaming at me as if I will never ever return your SMALL amount of money, you are embarrassing both of us in the public. -.-

i think my previous blog post picture look like "ah lian". okay i just leave it, its up to you guys to judge. anyway i had a wonderful week. Many things happen in my life. Because it is a new year so.... $.$! come on, who hates money?!?! hehe. I collected lots of ang bao and won some money. Moreover, i collected my pay and the boss gave me ang bao! shiokkkkkkkk~

I think i owe God lots of money, he bless me so much, i haven't give him back, soon ya.

But i need to calculate the amount that i need to spend/ give (:

1. money for church
   
2. clothes for poly
3. universal studio
4. dad's birthday
5. friend's birthday

New year is round the corner! I am excited about it, hehehehe these few days i felt that i have been closer to my family. I really really love them! though nowadays everyone is busy and thus most of us is not at home. I wondered if i was married, how my mum gonna live without me. okay that's too far.. hehehe, today I went out with my family to buy some new year goods and can you believe that i haven bought my clothes?! nvm! i shall go shop alone, hehehe. Tmr morning need to be awake to see my hester! Sadly yung didn't come ): it seems like it has been a decade since i see her already. Thank God we worked under the same company

Today: had a awesome outing with family :D went sushi tei instead of sakae. Filled our tummy to the fullest. Next sun shopping with them. hahaha anyway i have finally got another job. I have an idea of getting 2 job, in need of $$. This monday i shall go on an interview thanks to LC!

Last night, i felt that all the bad things have come to an end. Everything is resolved, my apology is returned and today my results are out. Thank God that i got the same course as my brother (; I can't wait to go school now! XD

Kbox and dad's arrival

Tues:

• went kbox with Hester, Yung, Huiyi, Keby, Lian Cheng, Gavin, Sai Kitt

• watch movie " The ghost must be crazy "

• travel to town to wait for our beloved Huiyi

• Ate xin wang while waiting

Today:
my dad finally arrived!

job interview

Hello,firstly i want to thank God that i have found a job so quickly!

Today i went for job interview at big O, Keby brought me there, the place look quite slack as compared to my previous job. After that, slacked with Hester huiyi and keby and went home.

I have to agree with " an idle mind is a playground for satan " While traveling back i think a lot. Really a lot! I was thinking.. did God forsake me? I did not procrastinate, I studied like a mad person everyday literally! woke up every morning to do amath and i failed. Chemistry tys, teacher consultation, affirmation and all. Sometime even skipped my recess to study. I really do not know how to study smartly, i am not a smart person either,sometimes i really feel like crying, why i don't feel that He is there?

But nevertheless, even if the ground is shaking, I have to stay strong. This year is a year where my relationship with Him increase!

p/s. i would like to thank these awesome people who are there/encourage me when i am down! Mindy,XX, Luwei, Esther, Joanna, Joshua, zixin, natasha, jiemin.
I love you guysss alot thanks for being there even before my olvl and getting result <3

I am really glad that my school clique are meeting up again, we are going kbox tomorrow! I am very worried about my friends recently after i am back to normal. I realise a lot of things happened. I don't have the gift of how to comfort people, actually i suck at it. I will tend to run away.

anyway, i really appreciate my close friends, yung, hester, natasha hui yi.. in fact i miss them a lot, i mean it.

I don't know why

Firstly, thank God for the results he given me, though it was not my expectation.
Two days ago, i got back my results.. it was not any other ordinary exam but it was my olvl result.. i saw the points that i got, my whole body went numb... literally! i saw my result, i wasn't very sad. i quickly call my mum and went home.
Otw home, i was utterly disappointed, my mum aren't? I was completely frozen and tears broke out. (haha i wish i could write this experience in olvl english.) i was veryveryvery sad, smses came, i was too sad to reply. i have no mood to answer call either. (very sorry).
I have never been so sad. I don't know why even up till now, nothing is bordering me, it seems that my heart is heavy. I prayed everyday, so that God set me free. Thank God for my mum who accompanied me these few days

BANG -.-

I realise it has been a long time since i blog/tweet. but i do fb alot, hahaha i post very less stuff as compared to others, i realise i am a freaking stalker who stalk only girls, lol. omgssssssssss i am not any gay okay.